Saturday, January 18, 2020

The higher one rises, the farther one is pulled down

                                                         

                                                      

“Evolution does not move higher and higher, into an ever more heavenly heaven, but deeper and deeper.
Each evolutionary cycle closes a little lower, a little nearer to the Center where the supreme High and Low, heaven and earth, will finally meet. The pioneer must therefore clear up the intermediary mental, vital, and material levels so that the two poles can actually meet. When the joining takes place, not only mentally and vitally but also materially, then the Spirit will emerge in Matter within a complete supramental being and a supramental body. The difficulties of accustoming the body to the supramental Agni may, ultimately, have a reason and a purpose.
All obstacles, whatever their nature, always ultimately prove themselves to be helpful auxiliaries of a Truth whose meaning and purpose we do not yet know. To our outer, superficial vision, the transformation seems to be exclusively a physical problem, because we always put the cart before the horse, but all difficulties are actually inner and psychological; the visible and dramatic difficulties of the body’s growing accustomed to the boiling Agni may be, as we shall see, less a practical or material problem than one involving the whole terrestrial consciousness.
If a pigmy were abruptly subjected to the simple mental light of an educated man, it would probably cause in the poor fellow subterranean revolutions that would traumatize him forever and drive him insane. There is still too much jungle underneath. This present world is still full of jungles: such is the problem in a nutshell. Our mental colonization is a very thin crust over a barely dried Stone Age.
Night after night, in his sleep or with his eyes wide open, the seeker uncovers very strange worlds. One after another, he unearths all the birthplaces of human perversion, human wars, human concentration camps, where everything we live here is being prepared; he catches in their dens all the sordid forces that move the petty and cruel men.
The more Light he possesses, the more darkness he uncovers. Night after night he tracks down the surreptitious rot that undermines Life; for how can anything change as long as that gangrene is there?
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Now the dark half of the truth has become illuminated. Every stumbling or error kindles a flame of pain and seems to produce a breach of light below; every weakness summons up a corresponding force, as if the energy of the fall were the very energy of the ascent; every imperfection is a step toward a greater fulfillment. There are no sins, no errors, but only countless mishaps that compel us to attend to the full extent of our kingdom and to embrace everything in order to heal and fulfill everything. Through a tiny crack in our armor, a love and compassion for the world have entered in, which none of the radiant purities can ever understand; purity is impregnable, self-contained, sealed off like a fortress; some fissure is needed for the Truth to come in!
There is a truth of Love behind evil. The nearer one draws to the infernal circles, the more one uncovers the great need in the depths of Evil and begins to understand that nothing can be healed without a corresponding intensity: a flame is kindled within, more and more powerful and warm beneath the suffocating pressure – there is just Her, nothing but Her – as if Love alone could confront the Night and persuade it of its luminous half.
As if all that Shadow had been necessary so that Love might be born. In truth, the heart of every shadow, of every evil harbors the inverse mystery. And as each of us bears or harbors a special difficulty, at once the contradiction and the sign of our destiny, it may be that, similarly, the immense "faults” of the earth – her sins and sufferings and the thousand gaping wounds of a pauper – are the very sign of her destiny, and that someday she will incarnate perfect Love and Joy because she will have suffered all and understood all.
As we progress, the superconscious line recedes upward and the subconscious line downward. Everything widens, everything is illuminated, but everything also closes in and converges around a sharp point of darkness, increasingly acute, crucial and pressing, as if we had turned for years and years – for lifetimes – around the same Problem without ever having truly touched it. Then, suddenly, it is right there, at the bottom of the hole, wriggling beneath the Light – all the evil of the world within one point.
The time of the Secret is drawing near. For the law of descent is not a law of oppression, sin, or fall, any more than it is a law of repentance or heavenward escape, but truly a Golden Law, an unfathomable Premeditation that draws us simultaneously upward and downward into the depths of the subconscient and inconscient, to that central point,that knot of life and death, shadow and light, where the Secret  awaits us. The nearer we draw to the Summit, the more we touch the Depths.“
Sri Aurobindo or The Adventure of Consciousness by Satprem  

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

"Today the Birthday of a Towering Disciple - Nolini Kanta Gupta" By Aryadeep


                                                                       



                                       


Today is the birthday of Nolini Kanta Gupta. He was with Sri Aurobindo in Alipore Jail and he was the fourth person to join Sri Aurobindo in Pondicherry in 1910. Under Sri Aurobindo and the Mother, he flowered into a towering multifaceted personality.  I write a reminiscence and  an inference based on a recorded talk of him.
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A reminiscence: The year 1974. Mid July to mid November.  Four Months. My first stay at the Sri Aurobindo Ashram. Evening 4 O'clock. Often I would sit and meditate beneath the varandha of the rooms close to the Samadhi of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother. That was the time for the evening walk of  Nolini Kanta Gupta inside the premises of the Ashram Main Bulding.  He would walk to and fro passing very close to me but I would not take slightest notice of him because, wes concentrating. I was in another world: I was 22 and had just discovered Sri Aurobindo's vision and path, and  that was most important thing. The life-long companions and disciples of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother were totally out of my interest or attention.
Nevertheless, on my last day, in the evening, as I was going to the Meditation Hall adjunct to the room of Nolini'da, I noticed that he came out and looked at me bit smilingly with kindly eyes. Was he aware that I was leaving? 
Later, while I was away from Pondicherry, after reading some of his writings and seeing his photo, an awareness grew on me that Nolini Kanta Gupta was not another disciple, not just a philosopher, not just a exponent of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother but someone far on the path of Supramental yoga - a forerunner. 
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An inference:
One of the most revealing things I have come across on the path of Sri Aurobindo and the Mother is the reality of deeper psychic or soul connections. It is something beyond reason, beyond intellectual explanations. 
Some 400 years ago, one day, great genius Leonardo da Vinci, was walking on a street of Milan (or some other Italian city). From the opposite side came another great genius Michelangelo with his friends. Instantly, Michelangelo insulted Leonardo  with very harsh words.  Of course there was a reason  for Michelangelo's anger towards Leonardo. According what I have in a booklet, Leonardo had helped a ruler to build a bridge or some other complex engineering task which  Michelangelo believed could harm a significant portion of the society.
There were other occasions when the two great geniuses would encounter each other, work side by side. 
Fast forward 1906 or 1907. A lapse of 300 years. A Tamil boy Aravamudachari living in Muthialapet (near Pondicherry) hears the name of Sri Aurobindo as one of the four prominent leaders of the country striving for freedom from the British rule in India. What happened next in his own words::
" And the four great names that  reached our ears ...were Tilak, Bipinchandra Pal, Lajpatrai (Lal-Bal-Pal) and Aurobindo. Of these only one name caught my heart and soul. Just to hear the name — Aurobindo — was enough. All the four persons were pioneers in the service of the country, great leaders of the front rank. Why then did  one name only out of the four touch me exclusively? For many days to come the mystery remained to me a mystery..... In 1910 Sri Aurobindo also arrived here in Pondicherry.  What a coincidence! He came to the very town where I had come! I was full of joy, thrilled with delight......A strong desire arose in me that I must see Sri Aurobindo.  The idea gained on me that somehow I must see Aurobindo. Hearing must be translated into vision. ...Day after day, night after night, this was my sole thought.  Two years passed by."
He finally had a glimpse of Sri Aurobindo one day. Then, a meeting and in his company the boy simply wept and said in his broken English: "I want... see you daily."
His wish was granted. 
As a boy coming from  traditional Tamil family he was taken to a river for some religious purpose and there one day he saw a golden ball coming close to him and passing by, He could not understand but when a few years later, when he bowed to Sri Aurobindo, he again saw that golden boy coming. .
Who was that Tamil boy who spent rest of his life, some 50 years, near Sri Aurobindo and the Mother serving them and their work and was given the name Amrita.
Well, once Nolini'da was asked to say something about his life and what he said was recorded.
According to his recorded talk, that boy was  Michelangelo!
I post below the transcript of the talk.
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Nirodbaran in his tribute to Nolini Kanta Gupta: 
"In conclusion let us hear a part of the recorded voice of Nolini-da where we get a clue to his true being (svarupa): 
“The story is after all the story of our adventure upon earth, a common adventure through centuries – not only through centuries but perhaps from the very creation of the earth. It is the story of the adventure of a group of souls, souls who were destined, who were created for the advent of a new creation. I will speak of only just a few bits and some important episodes of this adventure in which I participated, because you wanted to hear my life. 
“We came, all of you, all of us who are here, most of them, in different epochs at the crucial stages of our evolution. In different periods, whenever there was a necessity of an upliftment or an enlightenment, we all came together, each in his own way. So one or two episodes like that I can tell. For example, in Europe a crucial turning point of its history was the Renaissance, the new light. At the time of the Renaissance - we all know that the creator of the Renaissance was Sri Aurobindo – Leonardo – and the whole Renaissance was in his consciousness and all those who flocked around him, each one did his own work. You know that Amrita was intimately connected with that work – he was Michelangelo. And Moni was there – Suresh Chakrabarty. He was one of the chief artists. I have forgotten his name…
“But all… the work they actually did, you know, the important thing, the consciousness they brought – expressed some sad event, some not so, but living, concretizing the consciousness… My contribution in that age of Renaissance was in France. The Mother always said: “Your French incarnation was very prominent, even today it is very prominent.” That little bit of evolution is still living. The consciousness at that time in France – that was also the beginning of the Renaissance and… the new creation, new poetry – I was a poet of that time and introduced the new poetry in France. At that time the King of France was Francois I.  He was in the political – also in the general life of the people he introduced this new light, new manner of consciousness. So I was with him. And who was Francois Premier you know – Duraiswamy!
“The consciousness of the reality of that country was so strong that when I started reading or writing French – I wrote French – then sometimes I noted down some lines… later I found that I had noted down exactly some verses of this poet of France, Ronsard…”
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I may add an incident of recollection by Nolini-da of a past life. One day when he went to inspect our School garden, he was very much interested in observing the plan of the garden, the trees, the lotus pond and he remarked: “I was the gardener of Louis XIV, Le Notre.” 
(From Tributes to Nolini Kanta Gupta – Pilgrim of the Supermind, edited by Nirod Baran, page: 18-19)

Thursday, January 2, 2020

Today, 51 Years Ago - The Mother's Quintessential Experience by Aryadeep S. Acharya


10 months after the foundation of Auroville, on 1st 
January 1969,  that means today 51 years ago, at 2
in the morning, the Mother had one of the most
quintessential experiences directly related to the
purpose of her embodiment. Strangely enough, in
her conversation later on that day with Satprem, we
do not find any reference to it.  Then, in the next
meeting with him on 4th January, she refers to it
after a few sweet words about a flower.
This silence of the Mother reminds me of one of her
New Year messages at the start of 1956 (during
which the supramenal descent took place.)

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1956
The greatest victories are the least noisy.
The manifestation of a new world is not proclaimed by beat of drum.

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She later identified  experience of 1st January as descent or rather the advent of the Superman consciousness. Since I have a single PDF volume of all the 13 Agenda, I have easily collected some of the subsequent references to Superman Consciousness  in her conversation with Satprem. 
(Whenever there is mentioned "S":, it means Satprem spoke those words. Rest were Mother's)
Enjoy...and remember the unique,  unparalleled, marvellous times we are living in!
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First, seven “official” messages / answers / references on the event from a website The Incarnate Word (I say official because Mother’s Agenda was published in Paris by Institute of Evolutionary Research under a lot of animosity and bitterness between the Ashram management and Satprem.)
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16 Apr 1969
To be able to receive the new consciousness without deforming it:
One must be able to stand in the light of the Supreme Consciousness without casting a shadow.
16 April 1969
17 Apr 1969
There is only one new fact—from the beginning of this year a new consciousness has manifested and is working energetically to prepare the earth for the new creation.
17 April 1969
26 Nov 1969
Of late, I am constantly feeling, flowing in my system from above, a Force which I concretely experience like a sweet fluid. It flows continuously in my whole system and, from time to time, I feel completely drenched and saturated with it. It gives a very pleasant and soothing sensation. It is as if some sort of Ananda is flowing in me from above. It gives a sweet taste in the mouth.
I do not know what exactly this experience means. Is it the New Consciousness which You have said came on the 1st January this year? Or is it some new descent which has recently occurred? Or is it something personal to me only?
It is the Consciousness that is at work since January. But its action has become much more intense.
26 November 1969
29 Nov 1969
In 1919 Sri Aurobindo wrote that the chaos and the calamities were perhaps the pangs of the birth of a new creation. How long is this going to continue? In the Ashram, in India and eventually in the world?
It will continue until the world is ready and willing to receive the new creation; the consciousness of this new creation is already at work upon earth since the beginning of this year. If instead of resisting, people were collaborating, it would be quicker.
But stupidity and ignorance are very obstinate!
29 November 1969
1970
Mother, "The world is preparing for a big change, will you help?"1 What is this great change of which you speak? And how are we to be of help to it?
This great change is the appearance upon earth of a new race which will be for man what man is for the animal. The consciousness of this new race is already at work upon earth to enlighten all who are able to receive it and heed it.
1970
1.   New Year Message for 1970
3 Mar 1970
You have asked us to help You. How can I help You? What am I to do?
To concentrate and open to receive the new progressive consciousness, to receive the new things which are coming down.
3 March 1970
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The change does not need our help to come, but we need to open ourselves to the consciousness so that its coming is not in vain for us.
To allow the free working of the New Consciousness that descended last year, what should a sadhak do?
1) Be receptive
and
2) Be plastic
1970
The first indispensable condition to prepare ourselves to receive the new consciousness is a true and spontaneous humility which makes us feel deeply that we know nothing and are nothing in the face of the marvellous things we have to acquire.
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Reference 1:
4th January 1969
On the 1st, something really strange took place …. And I wasn’t the only one to feel it, a few people felt it too. It began just after midnight, but I felt it at 2, and others at 4 in the morning. It was … I told you a few words about it last time, but the surprising thing is that it didn’t correspond to anything I expected (I didn’t expect anything), or to any of the things I had felt. It was something very material, I mean it was very external – very outward – and luminous, with a golden light. It was very strong, powerful. But its character was a smiling benevolence, a peaceful joy, and a sort of blossoming in the joy and the light. And it was like a “happy new year,” like a wish. I must say it took me by surprise.
It lasted – I felt it for at least three hours. Afterwards, I stopped concerning myself with it, I don’t know what happened. But I told you a few words about it, and I spoke to two or three others: they had all felt it. Which means it was VERY material. They had all felt a sort of joy like that, but an amiable, powerful joy, and … oh, so sweet, very smiling, VERY BENEVOLENT … something … I don’t know what it is. I don’t know what it is, but it’s a kind of benevolence; so it was something very close to the human. And so concrete! So concrete. As if it had a taste, so concrete was it. Afterwards, I didn’t concern myself with it anymore, except that I told two or three people about it: they had all felt it. Now, I don’t know whether it has mingled or … It hasn’t gone, it doesn’t give the feeling of something that comes only to go away.
It was far more external than the things I usually feel, far more external …. Hardly mental at all, I mean there was no sense of a “promise” or … No. It would rather be like … My own impression was that of an immense personality, immense (meaning that for it, the earth was small, like this [Mother holds a small object in the hollow of her hands], like a ball), an immense personality, so very benevolent, and coming to … (Mother seems to gently raise the little ball in the hollow of her hands). It was the impression of a personal god (yet it was … I don’t know) who comes to help. So very strong! And so sweet at the same time, so understanding.
And it was very external: the body felt it everywhere, everywhere (Mother touches her face, her hands), all over like this.
What has become of it? I don’t know.
It was the start of the year. As if someone on the scale of a god (someone, that is) had come to say “Happy new year,” with all the power to make it a happy year. It was like that.
But what was it? …
So concrete …
I don’t know.
Is it … is it the personality (because it didn’t have any form, I didn’t see any form, there was only what it brought along [Mother feels the atmosphere with her fingers], sensation and feeling, these two things – sensation and feeling), I wondered if it wasn’t the supramental personality … which will, then, manifest later in material forms?
Since then, the body – this body – has been feeling (it has been permeated by that everywhere, a lot), it has been feeling much more joyful and less concentrated, living more in a happy, smiling expansion. For instance, it speaks more easily. There’s a note … a constant note of benevolence. A smile, you know, a benevolent smile, and all that with a GREAT FORCE …. I don’t know.
Haven’t you felt anything?
Satprem: That day, I had a sense of contentment.
Ah, that’s it! Yes, that’s right.
Is it the supramental personality? … Which will incarnate in all those who will have a supramental body …?
It was luminous, smiling, and so benevolent because of its POWER: I mean that generally, benevolence in the human being is something slightly weak, in the sense that it doesn’t like battle, it doesn’t like struggle – but this wasn’t like that at all! A benevolence that imposes itself (Mother brings her two fists down on the armrests of her chair).
It interested me because it was entirely new. And so concrete! Concrete like this (Mother touches the arms of her chair), like what the physical consciousness usually regards as “others,” as concrete as that. Which means it didn’t come through some inner being, through the psychic being: it came DIRECTLY onto the body.
What is it? … Yes, it may be that …. The body’s feeling since that took place has been a sort of certitude; a certitude as if now it no longer were in an anxiety or uncertainty to know. “What will it be? What will this Supramental PHYSICALLY be like?” the body used to wonder. “What will it be like physically?” Now, it no longer thinks about it, it’s happy.
Very well.
Satprem: Is it something that’s going to permeate the bodies that are ready?
Yes … I think so, yes. I feel it’s the formation that’s going to permeate and express itself – permeate and express itself – in the bodies … which will be the bodies of the Supramental.
Or maybe … maybe the superman? I don’t know. The intermediary between the two. Maybe the superman: it was very human, but a human of divine proportions, you understand.
A human without weaknesses and shadows: it was all luminous – all light and smile and … sweetness at the same time.
Yes, maybe the superman.
(silence)
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Reference 2
January 8, 1969
And this descent of the superman consciousness …
Did I tell you I had afterwards identified it?
S: When you spoke last time, you had identified it.
Yes, but I spoke of “supramental consciousness.”
S: Later, you said, “Maybe the superman?”
Yes, that’s it. It’s the descent of the superman consciousness. I had the assurance of it afterwards.
It was on the Is’ of January after midnight. I woke up at 2 in the morning, surrounded by a consciousness, but so concrete, and NEW, in the sense that I had never experienced that. It lasted, quite concrete and present, for two or three hours, and then it spread out and went to find all those who could receive it. And at the same time I knew it was the consciousness of the superman, that is, the intermediary between man and the supramental being.
It has given the body a sort of assurance, a sort of trust. That experience has made it steady, as it were, and if it keeps the true attitude, all the support is there to help it.
A certain number of people (I asked afterwards) had the experience, they felt it (not as clearly), felt the presence of a new consciousness – lots of people. They told me (I asked them if they had felt something), they told me, “Oh, yes!” But each with … (Mother twists her fingers slightly) naturally his own special approach.
(silence)
The curious thing (I’ve noticed it with others) is that when the Action is silent, it’s FAR MORE PRECISE than when it takes place through words. Words are received mentally, and there is always a slight distortion: a distortion of the content of those words. Whereas when the action is direct (Mother makes a gesture of inner communication), it’s very precise.
I don’t want to give names, but I’ve had both examples these last few days. There was someone I was to see only a few days later, so then I put the Consciousness and Force on him, and the change took place, but very clearly and precisely; while to others I spoke of this experience, and they transcribed it: two transcriptions were read out to me, very different from each other (while I very nearly said the same thing), each transcription is different, and there is a slight distortion, different too, in each.
I didn’t correct them because words themselves distort, so …
You see, when I speak, I give words a very precise meaning – very subtle and precise; the other person receives the sound of the word and gives it his own interpretation. But what can we do?
This Consciousness takes on a different “color,” so to speak, in everyone. It’s the same thing with words: words have a similar, but nevertheless different meaning for each of those who utter them …. We would have to communicate like this (gesture of inner exchange): the direct experience.
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Reference 3
January 15, 1969
(Silence)
It has remained, this [superman] consciousness. It has remained, it’s very strong, oh! … Today again, with these [Jain] sadhus, I had the experience: it came, mon petit, it was tremendous! It came massively, it enveloped me completely, so I sat very still, like that, behind it: nothing could get through. Interesting … Oh, it really is a power. Down to the vital. Physically, the body cannot respond; there is indeed an action, but … it’s not that. It’s not that. But it has put a vital in the body (you know that the vital had gone away), an awesome vital! That’s quite amusing. You feel as if you were saying to people, “Keep still!”
I am going to try it on A. [the American disciple], I’ll see if it makes him steady on his feet again …. He’ll believe it’s his statue of Athena! It doesn’t matter. Even those who think well still think nonsense, so …
This sadhu, “it” tried to pull him within, but when the pressure became very strong, he started talking! He couldn’t … [bear or contain it]. The disciple who was near him became very excited, but he controlled him.
He began with some banality about “the work I am doing for humanity” (some stupid remark of the sort), and when he saw it didn’t work, he kept as quiet as he could, then started talking again and said what I told you that he had “heard about me a lot, but …” As for me, I kept putting all this consciousness between the body and him.
After all, I enjoyed myself! (Mother laughs)
He had a stick, which he had even wrapped in white! He was all white, and the stick too was white; he carried it like this, as a bishop carries his crosier.
S: They have completely shut themselves in.
Ah, they’ve deliberately cut themselves off from the world, and they want to assert that: separation is part of their conception.
They have shut themselves in their saintliness.
Many of them, I am sure, have suppressed desires and all kinds of such things in a state of ferment …. But the body kept very still with that [superman consciousness] around it, and the Consciousness kept saying to him, “The individual is nothing, abdicate, abdicate the individual – be sincere, abdicate the individual. The supreme Consciousness alone is ….” It didn’t touch him. I don’t know if something in him received it, but he didn’t notice it …. We’ll see.
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Reference 3
January 18, 1969
(Regarding the “descent of the superman consciousness.)
Oh, did I tell you? The other day, when the [Jain] sadhu came, as soon as he came in (he stood there), this atmosphere came from here up to there (Mother draws a half circle in front of her), it surrounded me like a wall. It was thick, luminous, and what strength it had! But then, it was wholly directed at him (gesture of forward projection). For me, it was visible, very material, like a rampart, about this thick (gesture: about a foot and a half), and it remained there as long as he was there. It was as if to keep him still! (Mother laughs) It was very amusing.
So this consciousness is very consciously active.
(silence Mother gives flowers)
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Reference 4
January 22, 1969
(Again regarding the descent of the superman consciousness.)
I wanted to tell you something, and it’s gone ….
There’s been such a hurly-burly since this morning.
(Mother remains absorbed)
I told you how I was surrounded [by a rampart] …. Oh, but this consciousness is very interesting! It gives me lessons all the time, it’s very interesting! He gives me lessons during the night to tell me the things that must change, and with symbolic sounds to make me clearly understand: he makes me LIVE certain situations to know what needs to be changed – what he does is first-rate!
It’s going on in every detail. I can’t tell everything.
And it doesn’t just concern itself with individuals: it also concerns itself with events all over the world. I see that clearly because it intervenes in the action of this or that nation, I see that mostly at night.
It’s very active.
He’s educating me! Educating this body. That’s really very fine!
(Mother laughs) We’ll see what’s going to happen it depends on the body’s plasticity, of course.
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Reference 5
February 5, 1969
Last night, I knew I was doing it every night, but during the night … There was (but then, in the body, yesterday in the waking state) a sort of aspiration to know what the functioning would be, the action in the superman consciousness. I said, “Having this consciousness around oneself [like a rampart] is very fine, but one must also know what changes there will be in the body’s functioning, in the work, in one’s workings.” So then, this experience [of the figures] was like an answer to make me learn a little the future way. But what’s strange is that I did it exactly as they now do with those big electric machines, with all kinds of levers (gesture like a control panel in a power plant), I did it in that way, moving things and … Only, I think I must have been a little taller than I am …. I don’t know. In any case, I would place the objects (same gesture like a moving puzzle) … They weren’t objects, they were something … but it had a fixed form – it was fixed – and there was a sort of store (not a “storeroom,” I don’t know how to put it), a store from where I drew things, which I would put and arrange like that. The arrangement was continuous in its whole, but with changes in the details.
If I remembered exactly, it would be very interesting.
S: For some time there has been in my active consciousness a preoccupation that comes with great force, but which isn’t personal because the speculative mind isn’t working. It’s like a force coming over me again and again with a will, but I don’t know what will. And the preoccupation is, “the ruin of Science and what will happen after the ruin of Science.”
Oh!
S: You know, the end of the big “mental balloon,” and what will happen after, or the transition from the one to the other. It’s like a problem being sent to me – in connection with medicine, or new discoveries, or the students’ revolution …. It’s pressed on me from every side.
Well, well …
S: And especially this: the ruin of Science. There is a kind of force that wants … I don’t know if it’s to do something, or say something, or write … but it seems to drive me in this direction, towards this problem.20
S: Yes, it must evidently be the same force, because it wanted me to show you and explain to you, and you were WATCHING the work. I even made some reflections now and then, I would tell you, “These figures” (but I didn’t call them “figures,” I don’t know), “this I put here because of that ….” I gave you explanations.
S: It’s odd.
             S: From every side it comes to me.
It must be an activity of this [superman] consciousness, because it’s not something I’ve had for a long time. Last night, I knew I had been doing it regularly every night, but not for a long time. It must have come with this consciousness.
I should also say that yesterday (yesterday in my ordinary consciousness, I mean when I was here), there were two things: I thought about you, and said to myself … (it wasn’t yesterday, it was the last time I saw you, last Saturday) after Saturday, I had something that wanted me to know how this [superman] force acted with you; so it’s in response to that that I saw you last night and explained to you the whole working. And you participated consciously, that is,  you understood perfectly well all that I was doing – you participated consciously.
It’s interesting. It will grow clearer and clearer.
S: But strangely, it doesn’t at all come from “Me”: it’s really as if I were driven to this problem, the solution to this problem.
Yes.
S: Why, I don’t know.
Yes … And this vision [with the big control panel], it was like an application of scientific means, but quite different! And it was entirely based on … There was no thought, no reasoning, nothing of all that: it was a force going like this (gesture of a descent imposing itself), as it always does, and it impelled the action. So I saw; I saw, I knew I had to do this or that, and though I didn’t think at all, I was able to explain why, that is to say, I was able to say in advance that it was FOR such and such a thing. It was the combination of these two colors of figures (maybe it’s a translation in my consciousness? Anyway …), the blue figures and the golden ones. And the priority for action was always the golden figures; the blue ones came as if to fill a gap. It had a shape (same gesture like a moving puzzle), it had a shape. It’s odd. it’s odd, it was so natural, so spontaneous and HABITUAL: nothing in the being remembered it with surprise, that is to say, it didn’t remember as one would remember having dreamt and done something – nothing of the sort, it was quite natural: I did it “like that” and was quite aware that I was doing it every night …. And if I remember right, it was between midnight and 3 in the morning (a little earlier or later).
But it has a strong action, I mean it COMMANDS the action on earth, and it’s not subjected in any way or tied down to anything below: it’s like this (gesture of a descent imposing itself). And it constantly receives the Will or the Power of action from above – not “above,” it’s not above, it’s … (Mother makes a sort of gesture meaning it is “everywhere inside”) “superior” in the true sense.
This body RECEIVES things. It receives them. It doesn’t feel it’s … I don’t know how to explain (the thought isn’t working). All of a sudden it felt the need to know the effect this [superman] consciousness will have on the consciousness here, how it will work. And then, for you, I wondered, “Where and how does this consciousness act?” And that’s why I’ve had this experience [of figures] – that’s not “why,” it was preliminary to the experience, it came to draw my attention to the need to know that …. Odd! it’s odd.
You see, it had left an impression: I thought I had something material to show you [at the beginning of the conversation, when Mother was looking for something on her table]. It had left a deep impression.
(silence Mother tries to look at the clock)
S: It’s five to eleven.
Perhaps it’s the beginning of something interesting ….
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Reference 6
8 February 1969
But the nature of the thing is so special! … It has extraordinary precision, and such intensity that the body’s whole attention is turned towards that, but it can’t communicate yet …. Unless it comes quite naturally with this [superman] consciousness acting – acting in others, for some detail or other, for one thing or other (that is to say, people themselves don’t know, everyone isn’t aware of the whole action, he is aware only according to the development of his consciousness). The consciousness is very clearly active on a large scale, and with results that are quite surprising and look, when seen in isolation, like miracles (small miracles, but they look like miracles). So I have wondered if it was going to make others capable of the same inner work? … The hindrance in most people is mental activity – truly, this body is infinitely grateful that it has been liberated from the mental presence so it may be ENTIRELY under the influence of this Consciousness, without this whole accumulated farrago of so-called knowledge people have …. It’s spontaneous, natural, unsophisticated, very, very simple, and almost childlike in its simplicity. And that [the mind’s disappearance] is a great advantage. At this speed, things can go very fast – one learns a hundred, two hundred things AT THE SAME TIME, you understand, all of it seen at once. This morning, it was particularly intense.
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Reference 7
February 15, 1969
Just one thing, this atmosphere, this [superman] Consciousness is very active, and active like a mentor, as I already told you. And it’s going on. One of these last few mornings, for a few hours early in the morning, it was … Never, never had the body been so happy! It was the complete Presence, absolute freedom, and a certitude: these cells, other cells (gesture here and there showing other bodies), it didn’t matter, it was life everywhere, consciousness everywhere.
Absolutely wonderful.
It came effortlessly, and it left simply because … I was too busy. It doesn’t come at will – what comes at will is what we might call a “copy”: it looks like it, but it’s not THE Thing. The Thing … There is something wholly independent of our aspiration, our will, our effort … wholly independent. And this something appears to be absolutely all-powerful, in the sense that none of the body’s difficulties exists. At such times, everything disappears. Aspiration, concentration, effort … no use at all. And it’s the DIVINE SENSE, you understand, that’s what having the divine sense means. During these few hours (three or four hours), I understood in an absolute way what having the divine consciousness in the body means. And then, this body, that body, that other body … (gesture here and there, all around Mother), it doesn’t matter: it moved about from one body to another, quite free and independent, aware of the limitations or the possibilities of each body-absolutely wonderful, I had never, ever had this experience before. Absolutely wonderful. It left because I was so busy that … and it didn’t leave because it had just come to show “how it is” – that’s not it: it’s because life and the organization of life (gesture like a truckload being dumped) engulf you.
I know it’s there (gesture in the background), I know it is, but … But that’s a transformation as I understand it! And clearly, in people it could express itself-not something vague, clearly – in this man, in that woman, in … (same gesture here and there), quite clearly. And with a Smile! …
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Reference 8
February 19, 1969
The body is aware that That, this Consciousness, knows full well whether it will continue or not. It has never been told anything, and it knows (it has felt the two things equally, as equal certitudes, and with equal acceptance), it knows this is the most favorable condition for the work, so it doesn’t ask anything. There are worries around (of all kinds), from an anguish at the idea that it could happen (all around, like that) to (laughing) a haste for the end to come! (That also happens.) But now the body has learned to be ab-so-lute-ly indifferent to those reactions – absolutely. It smiles. It smiles with this benevolent Smile [of the superman consciousness], it has the same smile. And it sees, it knows, it senses where that [the worry or the “haste”] comes from, it’s thoroughly conscious. After all, it’s very amusing! There’s a whole gamut, a whole scale, from fear (a semiconscious, blind fear) to … (Mother laughs) an impatient desire! “Free at last! Free at last to do all the foolish things I want to do! …” It seems there aren’t many, but there are some.24 The two opposites of blind Ignorance coming together. The body has become very conscious: it’s very sensitive to what comes from people. It didn’t have that before, but now it senses.
It’s supported, helped: this superman consciousness that has come helps it a lot, it’s through it that the body feels, and that helps it a lot. Sometimes, when someone comes in, along with him (him or her or them) comes a slight acute uneasiness; if the body had felt that before knowing, it would have been painful, but now it can smile and wait to discover why it’s like that (Mother gestures as if to trace the vibration that caused the uneasiness). With others, on the contrary, the atmosphere is immediately filled with the presence of this Consciousness (that’s new, and very interesting), so then the body feels fine – it feels fine, rested.
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Reference 9
March 1, 1969
Only, it’s interesting; interesting in the sense that since this [superman] Consciousness has been here, the body has learned a lot of things, a whole lot of things. Really interesting. The body has learned things the mind didn’t know (!), so that’s very interesting-new things, ways of being, manners of being, internal organizations, all sorts of things.
I would have to spend hours every day to narrate what has taken place if we really wanted to keep a historical record of the path ….
(silence)
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Reference 10
March 12, 1969
But this Consciousness which has manifested since the beginning of the year, it’s VERY active; it has spread about and is very active. You remember, I always used to say (the body used to say, that is) that it was very difficult without someone capable of helping it, and this Consciousness has fulfilled that function, it serves as a mentor – it teaches the body loads of things. Really interesting. Things that the mind didn’t know, it teaches the body That way, the body is becoming a little clever!
(silence)
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Reference 11
March 12,, 1969
And the accuracy of the transmission (that increases the power a lot), the accuracy I credit this Consciousness with. It’s this Consciousness that made the power far more PRECISE in its action …. The superman consciousness.
It’s interesting.
But we mustn’t tell the story, that would instantly look like boasting, it’s disgusting! It can go to the Agenda,
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Reference 12
March 12,, 1969
One morning, with this Consciousness I had that experience of power (the true power): how, when it goes through a perfectly static, still, peaceful consciousness, there’s no distortion; and how, going through it, it awakens in the individual a sense of power and the collaboration of the individual will. If it is (I saw the two things at the same time), if it’s a yogic consciousness with the calm and IMPERSONALITY (that is, without any desire and any preference), then it’s STILL MORE POWERFUL, because it’s directed towards a precise spot instead of working in a general way – it’s directed towards a precise spot, and the action is multiplied. But if, in the consciousness through which the force is to act, there is the LEAST desire, the LEAST preference, or the least recoil … everything is spoilt. Everything is spoilt: it goes like this (gesture of trepidation), and it’s over. I saw that, with examples to back it up; not narrated examples, there’s nothing mental: everything shown – shown with vibrations. And that’s really interesting. It means that in the superman consciousness, with the full impersonalization (that is, no preference, no desire, no refusal, nothing – you are like this [gesture of an immobile Witness]), there will be the capacity to direct the Power for it to act on a PRECISE POINT, and then it will be multiplied in Matter. A multiplication of power, that is, an intensification of power in Matter.
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Reference 13
12 March 1969
a few days ago I had such an interesting example! I don’t remember (that’s deliberate, I don’t remember anything), but out of a movement of consciousness here (and now the body is very conscious of this presence of the superman consciousness, it’s very open and grateful, and very conscious), well, it saw a movement … something resembling compassion, a keen compassion, but with the emotion the vital feels when it has compassion (what the vital adds, that is); it saw that, and immediately saw the resulting effect and the response. It was someone (I forget who, the memory is deliberately taken away), it had to do with something that had happened to someone; this body consciousness reacted with a sort of moved pity, and that multiplied the power TENFOLD – the effect of the power on the cure – because it was completely impersonal. It was the Power using that [emotion] as a means of action.
Constantly, constantly, it’s: learn and learn and learn …. Interesting! (Mother laughs)
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Reference 14
12 March 1969
To people of ill-will
The harm you have caused willfully always comes back to you in one form or another.
Below there is a note: “Dictated by the S. M. [superman] consciousness.”
Yes, it’s that Consciousness which, one day … I remember, I was thinking, “Why be attached to things like that?” Then it answered this and insisted until I had written it. Below there is a note: “Dictated by the S. M. [superman] consciousness.”
Yes, it’s that Consciousness which, one day … I remember, I was thinking, “Why be attached to things like that?” Then it answered this and insisted until I had written it.
The harm you have caused WILLFULLY (that is, the will to harm, the will to destroy) always comes back to you, always.... And let me add that this Consciousness DOES it – its doing it: I SEE it. Quite unexpected things.
Many people have had a movement of anger, a movement of … willfully causing harm – it comes back to them.